The following is a message to Jessica from her sister Katherine who just started her first year at college. When you have a daughter that is chronically ill, you miss alot of "firsts". It is our hope that after Jessica is well from this treatment, our family can once again experience all those "firsts" together again!!!
Jessica You're Back
To my sister Jessica,
Jessica, all my life you showed me the way. It started off with things that were so easy for you but so big for me. Things like looking both ways before crossing the street, and teaching me how to "pump" so that I could swing on the swing set. I absolutely adored you in every way possible. I wanted to be just like you and always make you proud, in hopes that you would let me feel "cool" and hangout with you and your older friends haha. (well, that didn't always work out so well, but you know how those things usually go!) To me, you have always been this big, bright pillar of light. A light that was burning so bright inside of you that everyone who came in contact with you couldn't help but notice it and be in awe of it. You always had that "something" about you.
Then something horrible happened. You became ill and couldn't do much. No one knew what was wrong, it was one big horrifying mystery. To our horror, you had lyme disease and RSD, and they both slowly started to take over your life. You got sicker and sicker and doctors became more & more concerned. Everyone around you tried to think of things, anything, to bring you back. All of us, in our own great health, thought of solutions but none stuck. Jessica, even when you were the one who couldn't do half the things that we could physically do, somehow you managed to find all these solutions and even shock some of your doctors with your research and ideas! Although, on the outside you were no longer the person you had once been, inside however, that light inside of you was still burning bright. In fact, it was burning brighter than ever. Whenever I would go into your dark room, I always saw the light! Jessica, YOU are the one that kept that light burning so bright! There were so many times when you could have easily turned it off and given up, but you didn't! That light inside of you is the light of hope, the light of bravery, the light of determination, the light of love and of course the light of Jesus Christ, your Lord and savior.
Jessica, when you were put into the ketamine coma, I believe 100% that you did not just lay in a bed and sleep. I believe that God picked you up, held you in his arms, and breathed all of his might and love into you, so that when he layed you back down into your bed, you would wake up renewed in only a way that God almighty could ever do!
Now, I will finally have my sister back! But this time, instead of you showing me the ropes, I am going to show you! I can't wait for you to be able to visit me in college! I will take you to some great parties and we will have the time of our lives together!
I love you so much - more than you could ever possibly imagine. I know you will make it!!! And I can't wait to go for walks with you and talk about everything we haven't been able to talk about for so long!
Love always, your sister
Katherine
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Dearest Katherine...Jessica is so blessed to have you as a sister. Your caring and love and understanding is so deep for somone so young. Your Mom and Dad and Michelle are so lucky to have to to call family. I see you two hanging out at the parties and can hear your laughter and joy.
ReplyDeleteYou've touched my heart in ways that I will never forget. You truly are a very special loving sister, and daughter and friend!
With Love,
Nancy & Joe
Dear Jessica....Your sister Katherine has expressed all that she feels for you. You are both such beautiful and intelligent women. (Michelle is also just aS BEAUTIFUL and intelligent.) I hope that you can hear the words of your sister and everyone else that loves you. We are all cheering for you. We want you back home with us. With all of our love, support and prayers. Love to my sister Sara who is truly amazing. Anyone would be so propud to call you sister...I am truly blessed....Love your sister Carol
ReplyDeleteDear Jessica I Know how yuor sister Katherin (Blondy )this is the way we call her; she love you and she have beautyfull HEART
ReplyDeletePlease get better they both need you
love Cecilia
Dear Katherine,
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful letter you wrote to Jessica. Having the love of her family and God is what is getting her through this ordeal none of us can imagine. I keep all of you in my prayers,
Anne Kinn
Dear Katherine,
ReplyDeleteI loved reading the letter that you wrote to Jessica. What I loved the most is that, knowing you all these years, I know you meant every word from the bottom of your heart. You have written something that can be very healing for Jessica. Hearing how much someone close loves you, even if you know it already, is so good for the soul. I wish you all the best in college, if you ever need anything please call me. I keep you, Jessica, your mom, your dad, and Michelle in my prayers every day. You have a beautiful soul and a way about you that draws people to you. Your mom and dad can be so proud of how all three of their daughters have grown- so strong in their love and strong in their faith! Hang in there! I love you all- Angel
A message from Grandma....
ReplyDeleteKatherine wrote a beautiful letter to her sister. Thank you for calling me on my birthday. There is really nothing to celebrate without you both here. We pray for Jessicas speady recovery. Then we can all be together.
Love Akways...Mom