Hi to all,
I didn't know what I was going to blog today and then Jessica asked me a very poignant question: " Mommy, what is real and what is a dream??? Today, Jessica realized more of who she is and with that realization came many, many questions!!! Apparently she thought that the past few weeks were all a part of a bad dream. The doctors she has met, such as Dr. Cantu (who she calls Dr. green-shirt, because she remembers him wearing that color often in ICU), Dr. Luis (who she refers to as Dr. Luigi (maybe because of the Italian she took in high school), Dr. Ramos (who she calls Dr. Medusa, because when she was having bad hallucinations after the ketamine about seeing "worms", he came in and began to recount the story of Medusa, from Greek mythology) or Dr. Cynthia (who she calls Dr. Cynthia Lyme, because of her medical thesis being about lyme disease) and Dr. Eva ( who she calls Dr. Eva Pink, because she loves that color) --- all these doctors who she thought were all part of a dream, she now realizes are all real!!! That she is indeed in Mexico and that she just underwent a ketamine coma treatment, that only @104 people have tried in the whole world!!!
As you can imagine, all she keeps saying is that she wants to go home - and I can only imagine how she is feeling! Imagine being in a hospital, in Mexico, you don't have your full memory - it comes and it goes, the nurses speak another language, I could go on and on......to her, at times, it is very frightening.
So today, please keep Jessica in your thoughts and prayers once again. Pray that what was once a bad dream, becomes a more peaceful reality. And that as she takes the small steps ,or as Dr. Cantu so gently says to her: "Small steps --- huge advances"; she can better understand the road she has endured, the road she has taken and the road to better health that is up ahead!!!
In God's love,
always,
Jessica's Mom
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Jessica's Mom -- you are awesome. I recently read about a clinic that has helped people, even with your daughter's condition. I don't know if it is something you want to look into or not but if Jessica still needs more improvement after the ketamine you might want to explore this:
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I am fighting lyme too, but thankfully not RSD.
Real is the love you share, and the beauty of Jessicas,, thats real, and that will be joined by a better decnt health for her soon. in deed, in Gods mind, she is now Healed,, because she is never sick in her spirit..
ReplyDeleteso, instead of asking for her recovery , lets focus on give thanks to God, becuase it already happend. It may be just a matter of we realize that as a done fact, and that will show really our trust, confidence, and faith in this truth,, and the next moths and years should be miracleous¨ for you,, and throuhg you,, for many of us too..
HUgs,,
Danny (Colombia- HBOT),, so you remebre who i am,, i will like to share more directly to you in the future,, you alreday have my info in past comments...
a big kiss and hug to your princess.
and the to her question is: The Spirit invencible of GOd within you is the real,, even if it seesm blury for the moment,,
i bet, she will show to us a miracleous recovery very soon..
We are awaiting that miracle with open arms that you speak of Daniel!
ReplyDeleteThank you for praying!
Nancy
"You,O Lord , keep my lamp burning; my God turns my darkness into light." Psalm 18:28. Jessica, each day God is helping you move further into the light by restoring your memories. We thank Him for that and pray that each day you will progress a little bit more. Love to both of you.
ReplyDeleteLinda
Hi Mrs. Stevens and Jessica,
ReplyDeleteI will definititely continue to pray for these things. I know after my coma, I often "saw" Dr. Cantu, Dr. Trujillo, and a few other people that I would talk to and carry on conversations with, that were actually not really there. When one of them would actually come in, I would always ask them, "Are you really here." They would tell me yes but I would promptly inform them that they told me that every time. It was extremely frustrating and quite scary. I am sure that is intensified with Jessica loosing more of her memory.
We continue to pray for you both here. Hang in there Jessica. This too shall pass.
Love In Christ,
Lindsay Spengler