Saturday, April 17, 2010



Today is my daughter Katherine's 19th Birthday! Here is a special letter I wrote for her as a special gift from afar:

To my beloved daughter Katherine,

For as long as I can remember, I wanted to be a Mom. I thought that being a Mom would be the best thing I could ever be. Which means -- for all that time --- you were in my heart!

I loved you for all those years - even before you were born. And from the moment I discovered you were going to be in my life, I felt happy and blessed!

After all, I wasn't going to be just anyone's Mom --- I was going to be your Mom!

And I've always known - You're Someone Special!

So just in case I forget to remind you--- I feel so happy and blessed because you're in my life! And - I will always love you, because I'll always be your Mom!

Katherine, I thank God for sending you to me 19 years ago today. I cherish and celebrate this day - your birthday. I hope you always keep smiling that beautiful infectious smile that you have and that you always keep that bubbly personality! And - I hope you always know how very much you are loved, treasured, admired and adored!

Happy 19th Birthday Katherine!
I love you and always will,
Mom xoxo

"Everytime you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing." - Mother Teresa

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Fern said...

Happy Birthday Katherine! What a special day and a treasured letter from your mom. May youo bew be blessed richly this coming yeat and may you n ever question how much you are truly loved. I have come to know a little about you through your mom and sister and hope to one day meet you in person. Praying for you and your family today. Celebrate and feel honoured!

katherine! said...

thankyou so much mom!!!! i love you sooo much and youre the best and most wonderful mother i have ever known, God made me your daughter for a reason and i am soo thankful to have you as my mom.

p.s. thank you for giving birth to me, without you i wouldnt be able to celebrate this day!!i love you so much!!!

love, katherine!

Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday, Katherine! I had the opportunity to meet you when we transported Jessica. You were just starting college. Hope all is well :) Crystal

Anonymous said...

It was so wonderful to see you at church. You have grown to be a wonderful, beautiful child of Christ. May you be blessed with many wonderful years ahead.
Love to all,
Linda in Saratoga

Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday Katherine.

amurawski said...

Hello Katherine and parents,

I just became aware of your blog.

I have been drafting an article on the use of ketamine for reduction of symptoms, prevention of neurotoxicity, and reduction of immune system suppression in advanced Lyme disease. Please send me an email if you would like a copy of the article to share with the doctors. My email address is

Anthony Murawski

amurawski said...

p.s. I don't know whether the doctors are prescribing morphine along with ketamine. I would advise against that. High-dose morphine may counteract the effects of ketamine, and may also contribute to the form of neurotoxocity that occurs in Lyme diseaes. I haven't yet included this in my draft article, but can sent a separate email if they are using morphine.

All the best,

Marianne said...

Happy Birthday Katherine! We hope you had a wonderful birthday. Love from VA..Marianne and Rob

Anonymous said...

Nice post, kind of drawn out though. Really good subject matter though.

Anonymous said...

Wow, that's crazy man. They should really try to do something to fix that.

Anonymous said...

Wow, that's crazy man. They should really try to do something to fix that.

Anonymous said...

Wow, that's crazy man. They should really try to do something to fix that.

Jessica's Journey to Getting Her Life Back

By Sarah Gina (Jessica's Mom)

As we begin this journey toward renewed health we would like to express our sincere heartfelt thanks and appreciation to Dr. Anthony Kirkpatrick and all the work he has done and continues to do in order to bring patients like my daughter Jessica back to a more meaningful life and restored from this devastating illness. Also, special thanks to Dr. Fernando Cantu and his team of doctors in Mexico for taking on a difficult case like my daughters, Words cannot express the renewed sense of hope that we have that one day, our Jessica, can regain her life that has been taken away from her – God Bless you all!

Jessica’s Story

Once an A+ student who loved school, was involved in many extracurricular activities, played varsity tennis, lacrosse and gymnastics and enjoyed spending time with her family and friends, our daughter Jessica has spent the last 3 years incapacitated, paralyzed, unable to sit or walk and eat. She spends her days confined to a hospital bed, wearing sunglasses and noise-canceling headphones, due to severe light and sound sensitivity.

Jessica and her sisters, 2 mos. before becoming ill

The pain she feels is indescribable and all attempted treatments have not even come close to relieving her suffering.

She has seen many doctors, undergone numerous painful tests and procedures, has been prescribed various medications, and has been hospitalized frequently including being intubated and on a ventilator. She is severely debilitated and currently is only 92 pounds. This is certainly no life for a 21 year old young woman!

Jessica is suffering from neurologic Lyme disease and Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy (RSD), a severely debilitating and painful neuromuscular disorder. She suffers daily with constant sharp, stabbing, tingling and burning pain; throughout her body; severe headaches; paralysis; intense muscle spasms; gastroparesis; seizures; twisting of her limbs (dystonia); sensitivity to any touch (allodynia); extreme sensitivity to lights and sounds; excessive sweating; swelling; fevers; softening of bones; decreased hair growth; redness and discoloration of the limbs; and painful skin ulcers. The pain is constant and unrelenting, but despite her suffering, her faith in God remains and she still has hope for her future.

Jessica's painful skin lesions

Jessica's journey began in 1999, when she was only 11 years old. She became very ill with Mono and was bed bound for 3 months. She subsequently developed RSD (stage 1) of the lower right leg. She received early intervention and returned to playing sports and enjoying her life.

Jessica, age 15, at summer camp

Four years later, in 2003, while away at a sleep-away camp, she developed a rash behind her right knee, coincidentally in the same leg that previously had RSD!

At the time, the camps nurse & doctor told her that it was “duck rash” – a rash from swimming in the lake with duck feces. However, Jessica was able to obtain photos from camp from another camper which shows the classic “bulls-eye” rash from Lyme disease! It wasn’t until much later and only after developing symptoms and becoming very ill, was the diagnosis of Lyme disease and Babesiosis (another tick-borne infection) made.

Most people (and doctors!) have no idea how serious Lyme disease can become and no clue how to properly diagnose it. Unfortunately, if she would have been promptly diagnosed and treated for Lyme disease, the RSD would not have been triggered and she would not be suffering.

July 2003, Jessica's Lyme disease rash

If it wasn’t for her doctor, Dr. Liegner, and his expertise with complex cases of Lyme, and his determination to try any means in getting her well, by getting a “team” of doctors on her case, we wouldn’t be here today, still fighting. We owe him a deep sense of gratitude for all he does for Jessica!

During these past three years and with the pain becoming more intense and unbearable she has been seeing Dr. Finkelstein for pain management. He has even made house calls to spare her the pain of coming by ambulance to his office. Jessica has been treated with multiple pain medications, at the highest possible doses, as well as an implanted dilaudid pain pump, which delivers potent medication straight into her spine. Many doctors have told us that with the amount of medications Jessica was taking would be enough to “kill a horse”—yet they had little to no effect on her. If it wasn’t for Dr. Finkelstein trying to alleviate her constant, severe, unrelenting pain, I don’t know how she would have managed. He is very special to us as well.

Recently Jessica was transported by air ambulance to Tampa, Florida to see Dr. Anthony Kirkpatrick, a world renowned RSD expert. Dr. Kirkpatrick told us that Jessica is one of the most debilitated patients he has ever seen.

Jessica getting into the air-ambulance to go see Dr. Kirkpatrick

Upon his testing and because Jessica's condition is so severe, Dr. Kirkpatrick is recommending the only treatment available that can possibly help relieve her suffering, and afford her some semblance of a “normal” life - the Ketamine Coma Procedure - a clinical trial that is being conducted in Monterrey, Mexico.

During this procedure Jessica will be put into a coma , with the hope that her nerves, brain and spinal cord will “reset” -so that her nervous system sends the correct signals to her brain.

Yes, this is a radical, scary treatment, however, for Jessica, "scary" is thinking that she could spend the rest of her life in this condition, unable to walk, eat, or take care of herself. Since all reasonable treatments have failed to help her, we feel we must try everything possible to help Jessica regain her life.

We understand that due to Jessica’s fragile condition, there is a high risk associated with this procedure. We are also aware that other patients with severe RSD like Jessica's have had success.

Jessica’s goal is to one day become a doctor. Our hope is that with this study she can have that chance. As her Mom, I know that she will be a great doctor because when a patient presents in her office and says “Doctor, I am in pain and words cannot express how bad it is” – my daughter –Dr. Jessica– will be able to say - :I know how you feel, I’ve been there too. So, take a seat and let me tell you a story”….

We are so thankful and feel so blessed to have been led to Dr. Kirkpatrick.

God is good and with his help guiding Dr. Cantu and Dr. Kirkpatrick, our hope is for Jessica to be able to return to us whole again and pain-free!