"Hey, Dr. Cantu! Can I ask you something?"
"Oh no" (smiling) "Ok, sure."
"I want to try and stand up!"
"Well, What do you think...Can I???"
--Big deer-in-headlights stare.--
Followed by, "Well, Jessi, you know your bones are-"
"Fragile. I know. But I am ready!! I have been working so hard all year going in the pool and I am a lot stronger now. I think I can do it."
--More silence. Dr. Cantu begins looking at his iphone and avoiding my eye-contact. (great....)--
"I really want to do this as a Christmas present for my grandma. She has prayed non stop for my miracle. She's 89 years old and she is losing her vision quickly.... I want her to see me stand, you know, while she still can..."
Well, That did it!
He looked up from his phone, smiling and shaking his head. And he finally gave in!
"Ok. Ok! You can try. BUT--this has to be done safely and under supervision. You haven't stood in years, so your brain needs to be taught. If I just let you stand here, now, you will get hurt."
Dr. Cantu said he would set up a time with Dr. Garza, a rehab physician at AVE for the very next day!
"We will see what he says. Dr. Garza will show you what to do and you will have to agree to do what he says and not push beyond that... Ok?"
"Yay! Agreed!Thank you!!!!!!!"
"...Oh, And please wear a Green Shirt tomorrow so I can take a picture standing with you!" :)
"Hey Dr. Green Shirt, I am taller than you!!!" Hahaha
"Are you really sure?" Dr. Cantu asked me.
"Yes!! I've got it! Let go!"
So they did!!
And I stood on my own for about 30 seconds!!
I sat down, rested, and stood up again 2 more times, until my legs were shaking too much to try again! We decided to call it a day.
It was one of the most fantastic days of my life! Every 'first' has been miraculous and so special, eating my first food, sitting up, swimming, etc, but standing definitely ranks very highly on that list! And I know walking one day will rank most high!
Dr. Garza said right now I have about 5% of the strength needed in my legs to walk. 5% may not sound like a lot, but it actually is!
After spending 6 years in a bed, & 3 of those years completely paralyzed, unable to move my legs at all, I was told by so many doctors I would never have use of my legs back, ever. And look!! I am standing!!! That in itself is a miracle!
Christmas 2010 my dad and sister Michelle came to visit me in
Tonight, on the eve of Jesus' birth, I will stand using my walker in front of my entire family for the first time! I can't wait to see their reactions, especially my grandma's face!!
I know it sounds cliche, but we must not forget the reason for the season! All of the glory, honor and praise for every part of my recovery goes directly to the birthday boy, my healer, savior and redeemer, Jesus Christ! We believe in miracles because of His birth! We only live because of His life! May we love and adore Him like it's Christmas everyday!
Thank you to everyone who prayed this moment into being. Your prayers have been, and are still, being answered!
All I can say is look out 2013... My list is recently revised again and God willing, I will soon be crossing off many more things! :)
Merry Christmas & Feliz Navidad to all!
Happy birthday Jesus!
In God's love,
"Then your light will break forth like the dawn, and your healing will quickly appear; then your righteousness will go before you, and the glory of the LORD will be your rear guard." Isaiah 58:8